Tired and sick of everything

Sick of all the things that was going on,firstly lost the match with swiss cottage the judge from their school damn bias.when they faul they pretend that nothing is wrong and when something goes wrong for us we were sent out lost 10 to 8 secondly i am the class AVA the cable for the visualiser is missing when i'm not around and i was blamed for losing it i didn't even know what happened.I'm really sick and tired of the world if i could sleep peacefully. I don't mind not waking up again. I alway got scolding for everything i do, my sec 2 footballers asked me to be the keeper as i am the best keeper in the school and when i miss a goal i got scolding from everyone and when i catch every ball that they shoot at me ,they said that i am a bully so what the freak should i do with that,they even drag me out of the canteen while i am having my breakfast to be the keeper. i never gotten support from everyone all i have ever gotten is almost meaningless I got full score for NAPFA and they say i am a cheat when i got 75mark for overall my mom say that that is not good at all what what the hell am i living for.am i just living for others?or for myself? i wonder what am i really after all that i have gotten through. what is the thing that i really want love,money? or maybe a career as a rockstar. i'm not going to get a job and just waiting to die its just wrong.whaat is the meaning of life? a life process???? Am i walking the path that i cloose?